As someone who used to struggle on the daily with severe Anxiety/OCD, this pandemic has been a HUGE challenge for me. It’s as if the universe was serving up one of my greatest fears in a nutshell. It is reactivating in a major way all the amazing progress I have made over the years. This may be the final challenge in my mind as I navigate into further elevating and stepping into my greatness. My battles with mental illness and trauma have been an amazing journey, with some days total free of symptoms and others making me feel like I made no progress at all. But I have. Every day I am fighting the old me. The old neuron-connections, the old ways I would control things, the old fear. Wellness is NEVER a straight line and it takes different forms every day. This has reactivated a lot of old patterns, behaviors, negativity and neuron connections in people. This is why some panic and clean out the grocery stores. This is why some people downplay it. It feels comfortable and safe in times when we feel stressed to shutdown. Those people are letting ego and fear take hold, which is why our world is in demise in the first place. And the rest of us try to balance and find knowledge so we can keep both ourselves and others safe.
We have to be kind to ourselves and not get lost in the fog. I am trying to shape my life rather than let outside forces and fears control me. I relish in the love I have for my partner. I relish in my art. I relish in the ability to wake up every day healthy in my apartment.
Now we are shedding light on how connected we all our, how our daily actions can affect so many others. What if we lived like this every day? With people, animals, plants? What if we acknowledged the power of our collective and helped one another on a daily basis? The world is shifting and I jokingly used to mention the end of times quite often and now that we are in it, it’s not the one I used to joke about with zombies or super crazy cars and guns, it’s the planet reacting to all our mistakes. This year is meant to be a powerful shift. The old patriarchal, capitalist society is collapsing because mumma nature had enough. We have all had enough, but most of us don’t know how to get out of the 9am-5pm trap we have been spoon-fed our entire lives. It is time to BREAK OPEN your insides and reassess what truly matters. I have been trying to distract myself by making art, making love, walking outside and resting my body. What have you been doing to cope?
Stay safe world.
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